这是一如既往的碎碎念,相信在群里的朋友应该经常看到。那我也借着这个机会,利用上架感言随便说说吧。43GFb1
新书的想法大概是从去年年末开始就有过吧,觉得自己可以尝试一些别的风格,毕竟有很多看过破碎记录的朋友都期待我写新的啊,然后女朋友也挺支持的吧。不过当时没想到方舟,毕竟知道的设定太少了,重心大概就放在高中时因为一场梦起来后记录下来的脑洞吧(其实破碎记录的名字当时就是这么来的。)43GFb1
北方的冬天很冷,那个时候我还在红弦俱乐部跟他们弄了少女前线的同人比赛,也就是从那阵子开始情感出现裂痕的吧,不过我没怎么察觉到(笑)43GFb
码字,和实习是我那阵子即将面对的事情,因为怠惰新书一拖再拖,又拖了个半年,然后也确实因为硬核题材太累了破碎记录写的很累很慢也不受欢迎。不过毕竟那么多年了,认识我的都知道我也是从贴吧一路写过来的,就这次想坚持下去.......43GFb
看到这里有人估计会问,鲸背上的骑兵上架感言和破碎记录有什么关系,你们看到是裙角和我薄红有何关系,其实关系也不是特别大哈哈哈哈,所以就是我借着这个机会碎碎念一下。43GFb
大概冬天过去了,三月底我过完21岁生日没几天遭遇了车祸。从那开始2019对我来说再没有任何地快乐而言了,正如柳德米拉·帕夫柳琴科的墓志铭——美好的时间总像是兔子的尾巴掠过秋天的田野,对我而言也是如此。43GFb
车祸后的感情问题,实习成绩事情,甚至到后来的毕业证拖延放等等中途乱七八糟的事情都在折磨着我,就再也回不到过去那般无忧无虑和快乐,在拥有后感受到失去的巨大落差,也算是没白活一场。43GFb
那些时候陪我度过的除了歌单,模糊的话音和潦草的聊天记录外大概就是写作了吧。直到今天我也认为,这是我为数不多的特长之一。43GFb
我再犹豫迷茫中度过了520,又在压抑的气氛中等过了一周年最后该走的还是会走,没有的依旧是没有,那几个月因为伤痛无心写作荒废的日夜,最后都化作遥不可及的星光永远存在我翻过那页泛黄的回忆中。43GFb
虽然嘴上说着很讨厌将别人变成自己珍贵回忆的这种话,但是偶尔码字时翻阅文档中记录的文字告白,搞怪时胡乱给我留下的话,在听着熟悉的旋律翻过那一年最纯真的美好时我写下的文字,或许一直想要的陪伴和再也找不回来的心情就永远尘封在那里面吧。43GFb
最后的最后,在这种心态下写下了这本新书。是失落后的挣扎,大胆的尝试,掺杂了我很多很多的私货,有还是小孩子时幼稚的想法,也有中二期的YY,还有我曾经还有现在认为所有美好的经历与感受。43GFb
我是个很无聊,不会讲故事也不怎么说话的人,所以今天的上架感言也会如此潦草纷乱,不过我还是一直记住,哪怕过了这么多年也一直记得很清楚,想要写出大家喜欢看的美好的文字。43GFb
这已经陪我度过了六年,幼稚到成熟的距离,人来人往花开花落,总是在痛苦和莫名的哀伤中度过,但正是因为这些才铸成了今天的我。43GFb
最后不管是新书还是老书都会好好写的,还请大家多多订阅啊。43GFb
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Never knowing where our own futures lie,43GFb
And easily we start simplifying all our ***nning,43GFb
Le**ing it to circumstances.43GFb
Why should we be worried 'bout rushing forth43GFb
When we can take it slow and enjoy all that life has to offer us tonight?43GFb
Surely there's more than that.43GFb
Never knowing where our own futures lie,43GFb
And easily we start taking everything for granted,43GFb
Disregarding consequences.43GFb
Why should we be worried 'bout holding back?43GFb
If we can stop ourselves from the habit of putting too much into our minds,43GFb
What does it take for us to realize43GFb
It's not simple living with one's own regrets.43GFb
This is a path that cannot be erased... We've run out of time.43GFb
One of these lone days, waking up when things43GFb
h**e changed, I can't run from it.43GFb
Suddenly, the time keeps on moving on43GFb
Without your sweet laughter.43GFb
I know that I miss you day and night,43GFb
Thinking we could let time just slip away,43GFb
And idly keep going around in circles endlessly,43GFb
Keeping everything hidden by a sleeve...43GFb
Yet if we open up, could there be one more chance to relive that very time?43GFb
Knowing that changes things.43GFb
One of these lone days, waking up when things43GFb
h**e changed, I can't run from it.43GFb
Suddenly, the time keeps on moving on43GFb
Without your sweet laughter.43GFb
I know that I miss you day and night,43GFb
I've loved you all this time.43GFb
I've loved you all this time.43GFb
I've loved you all this time....43GFb
我心始终倾慕于你...43GFb11