这是一如既往的碎碎念,相信在群里的朋友应该经常看到。那我也借着这个机会,利用上架感言随便说说吧。f1svK1
新书的想法大概是从去年年末开始就有过吧,觉得自己可以尝试一些别的风格,毕竟有很多看过破碎记录的朋友都期待我写新的啊,然后女朋友也挺支持的吧。不过当时没想到方舟,毕竟知道的设定太少了,重心大概就放在高中时因为一场梦起来后记录下来的脑洞吧(其实破碎记录的名字当时就是这么来的。)f1svK1
北方的冬天很冷,那个时候我还在红弦俱乐部跟他们弄了少女前线的同人比赛,也就是从那阵子开始情感出现裂痕的吧,不过我没怎么察觉到(笑)f1svK
码字,和实习是我那阵子即将面对的事情,因为怠惰新书一拖再拖,又拖了个半年,然后也确实因为硬核题材太累了破碎记录写的很累很慢也不受欢迎。不过毕竟那么多年了,认识我的都知道我也是从贴吧一路写过来的,就这次想坚持下去.......f1svK
看到这里有人估计会问,鲸背上的骑兵上架感言和破碎记录有什么关系,你们看到是裙角和我薄红有何关系,其实关系也不是特别大哈哈哈哈,所以就是我借着这个机会碎碎念一下。f1svK
大概冬天过去了,三月底我过完21岁生日没几天遭遇了车祸。从那开始2019对我来说再没有任何地快乐而言了,正如柳德米拉·帕夫柳琴科的墓志铭——美好的时间总像是兔子的尾巴掠过秋天的田野,对我而言也是如此。f1svK
车祸后的感情问题,实习成绩事情,甚至到后来的毕业证拖延放等等中途乱七八糟的事情都在折磨着我,就再也回不到过去那般无忧无虑和快乐,在拥有后感受到失去的巨大落差,也算是没白活一场。f1svK
那些时候陪我度过的除了歌单,模糊的话音和潦草的聊天记录外大概就是写作了吧。直到今天我也认为,这是我为数不多的特长之一。f1svK
我再犹豫迷茫中度过了520,又在压抑的气氛中等过了一周年最后该走的还是会走,没有的依旧是没有,那几个月因为伤痛无心写作荒废的日夜,最后都化作遥不可及的星光永远存在我翻过那页泛黄的回忆中。f1svK
虽然嘴上说着很讨厌将别人变成自己珍贵回忆的这种话,但是偶尔码字时翻阅文档中记录的文字告白,搞怪时胡乱给我留下的话,在听着熟悉的旋律翻过那一年最纯真的美好时我写下的文字,或许一直想要的陪伴和再也找不回来的心情就永远尘封在那里面吧。f1svK
最后的最后,在这种心态下写下了这本新书。是失落后的挣扎,大胆的尝试,掺杂了我很多很多的私货,有还是小孩子时幼稚的想法,也有中二期的YY,还有我曾经还有现在认为所有美好的经历与感受。f1svK
我是个很无聊,不会讲故事也不怎么说话的人,所以今天的上架感言也会如此潦草纷乱,不过我还是一直记住,哪怕过了这么多年也一直记得很清楚,想要写出大家喜欢看的美好的文字。f1svK
这已经陪我度过了六年,幼稚到成熟的距离,人来人往花开花落,总是在痛苦和莫名的哀伤中度过,但正是因为这些才铸成了今天的我。f1svK
最后不管是新书还是老书都会好好写的,还请大家多多订阅啊。f1svK
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Never knowing where our own futures lie,f1svK
And easily we start simplifying all our ***nning,f1svK
Le**ing it to circumstances.f1svK
Why should we be worried 'bout rushing forthf1svK
When we can take it slow and enjoy all that life has to offer us tonight?f1svK
Surely there's more than that.f1svK
Never knowing where our own futures lie,f1svK
And easily we start taking everything for granted,f1svK
Disregarding consequences.f1svK
Why should we be worried 'bout holding back?f1svK
If we can stop ourselves from the habit of putting too much into our minds,f1svK
What does it take for us to realizef1svK
It's not simple living with one's own regrets.f1svK
This is a path that cannot be erased... We've run out of time.f1svK
One of these lone days, waking up when thingsf1svK
h**e changed, I can't run from it.f1svK
Suddenly, the time keeps on moving onf1svK
Without your sweet laughter.f1svK
I know that I miss you day and night,f1svK
Thinking we could let time just slip away,f1svK
And idly keep going around in circles endlessly,f1svK
Keeping everything hidden by a sleeve...f1svK
Yet if we open up, could there be one more chance to relive that very time?f1svK
Knowing that changes things.f1svK
One of these lone days, waking up when thingsf1svK
h**e changed, I can't run from it.f1svK
Suddenly, the time keeps on moving onf1svK
Without your sweet laughter.f1svK
I know that I miss you day and night,f1svK
I've loved you all this time.f1svK
I've loved you all this time.f1svK
I've loved you all this time....f1svK
我心始终倾慕于你...f1svK11